Sunday, May 2, 2010

Shouldn't We?

Shouldn’t we all feel younger in May?
Shouldn’t this, the prettiest month of the year, erase worry lines from our faces and gift us with smiles?  
The spectre of frost no longer lurks all around the white roses.  They drape over my window like an extravagant strand of pearls, illuminated at midnight by a creamy May moon that spreads silver shadows over the lime green of new moss. 
Shouldn’t we all be amazed?
After such a harsh winter, a company of foxgloves now stands tall in the garden, the most colourful totems of Spring.   The morning air, sweetly redolent with the smell of wild azalea,  is carried along by gentle winds that bear no resemblance to their raucous cousins of March.  They are welcomed in through open windows, softly blowing the curtains into the quiet rooms, playing with the fur on the white dog’s head.  
Shouldn’t we all be grateful?
The woolens are all packed away now, the linen is pressed and crisp.  There are sunhats lining the hallway and the first white gardenia blossom sits by the bed.  While stretched out before us, like a river of gold, are all the sun-kissed days of summer, as far as my blue eye can see.
Shouldn’t we all be happy?  
Shouldn’t we follow the traditions of old and place bouquets of spring flowers on the doors of our friends?  Shouldn’t we wind beribboned garlands around a tall wooden Maypole in the center of town? 
Shouldn’t we dance? 
Wash our faces in the morning dew? 
It is May. 
Shouldn’t we all feel younger?

Painting above by Honor Appleton
Wednesday, April 28, 2010

The Intruder

The chaise lounge that sits in my bedroom is covered in stars.  Woven into the red tapestry, this fanciful constellation calls out to me on a dreary afternoon, beckoning me to “Come, Sit Awhile, Have a Daydream”.  I cannot resist.  With the April sun hiding behind thunderclouds of grey, a brisk wind plays through the chimes that hang round my open window like spring icicles, their sound a bit muffled now that the rose bush is in bloom. I plump up the pillows behind my head and crack open my book.  No new best seller, no trendy tome.  No, this is the perfect day for climbing that winding drive up through the dark wood, past the wall of blood-red rhododendrons, on round the corner where the sea can be heard, crashing on the rocks far down below the garden.
  I am on my way to Manderley again.  
I am rereading Rebecca.

Perhaps he will not appear this time, choosing instead to remain in his place, deep in the shadows of the black and white world to which he so rightfully belongs.  But just as I read of his fated arrival in that dining room in the Monte Carlo hotel, there he is.  I can see him now clearly, sitting just across the room in my tufted leather porter’s chair, with his suede clad feet casually resting on my Indian ottoman, the smoke curling up from his pipe, and a faint furrow of worry etched across his handsome brow, just visible over the top of his newspaper.  Maxim de Winter, as played by Sir Laurence Olivier.  And once again, I am reminded.  Always, always read the book first.

Rebecca was one of my mother’s favourite movies and therefore I saw it with her on television long before I was fortunate enough to read Daphne du Maurier’s atmospheric prose for myself.  So naturally, when I finally got around to opening the book, there he was, Sir Laurence, on every page.  I could not get him out of my mind.  Not that that’s such a bad thing, exactly, for he did play the part extremely well.  But rarely does a film match the unique images one sees in one’s head when reading a book.  Everything about the character, from their pattern of speech, to that mysterious look in their eye, or the way their hair ruffles in the wind - on the very first reading each individuality appears for you and you alone, complete, and never to depart.  Pick up a beloved book years later, open it up, and there they’ll all be, those well-known characters, wandering around in the rooms you remember, where the autumn sunlight falls on the patterned carpet just so, and one lone rose petal drifts down from that vase on the piano, softly hitting a key like the whispered sound of a bell.

But be aware, see a film before a book, and so often, try as you might, you cannot stop the actors from striding onto the stage of your imagination with an arrogant sense of entitlement towards the characters they have portrayed.  Close your eyes, grit your teeth, they remain, and no doubt it is a testament to their prodigious acting skills that they do.

For those of us who saw the movies before we read the books, is it possible to pick up a copy of Gone With The Wind and not see the lovely face of Vivien Leigh?  Can Breakfast At Tiffany’s stand alone, without the irresistible presence of Audrey Hepburn traipsing along through its pages?  So intertwined are these actresses with their literary counterparts they are almost woven into the very fibers of the books from whence they sprung.  Conversely, whenever I reread Wuthering Heights, try as he might, Lord Olivier has no effect on me whatsoever.  Having been fortunate enough to have read the book before I ever saw the film, my Heathcliff remains true to my original vision, his wild face one only I can see.  It matters not how brilliant Olivier was in the film version.  My imagination is untouched.

I’m not saying books should never be turned into film.  Just that books are generally always superior.  Read them first, give your imagination a chance.  Then enjoy the movie.    Of course, I suppose there are worse things that spending an afternoon with Sir Laurence.  
But I swear, if Joan Fontaine shows up, I’m off to do the laundry.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Mother Nature

Off in the distance I see them, rising up before me, a wall of sleeping giants wearing garments tailored in Oz.  Like a metallic thread of silver woven through their viridian overcoats, the road winds through these mountains, and I follow it until I eventually vanish deep inside Mother Nature’s masterpiece of peacock and lime.  I turn my phone off.  I turn the music up louder.  Ambrosial air drifts in through my open window and with a gentle hand it brushes my face with the spirit of honeybees, bluebirds and moss.  I am happily hidden inside the verdancy of a mountain Spring.

She rules this kingdom of earth with a mercurial wand, forever amused by our schedules and plans.  Just as I am being led deeper and deeper into a sylvan paradise, others are looking up to the sky where an angry hydra of smoke and ash holds them to the ground with a force as fixed as gravity.  She is both admired and feared, and rightfully so, for the same capricious hand that fans me with picnic breezes and hangs shimmering stars in my midnight sky may also hurl a screaming gale out over the glen, causing rain to fall sideways and trees to bow down in the face of her absolute power. 

But oh, what an artist she is!  With her magical paint box overflowing with infinite colour, her orchestras of birdsong, her lightning bolts, her moonlight, her auroras - she kindles Atlantis on this bouncing blue ball that hangs suspended in the cold astral darkness. And today, as I make my way through her heart-stopping painting of green, I am only too happy to be but one of her insignificant subjects, singing along to the music she plays all around me.

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My perfect play list for a long, long drive through Mother Earth’s green mountains of Spring:

*all downloadable on iTunes

Rollin’ Home by Old Blind Dogs
First Train Home by Imogen Heap
Windmills Of Your Mind by Noel Harrison
Mother Nature’s Son by The Beatles
Been To Canaan by Carole King
White Winter Hymnal by Fleet Foxes
Blackbird by The Beatles
Witchcraft by Frank Sinatra
Under The Weather by KT Tunstall
L.O.V.E  by Nat King Cole
Mercy Of The Flame by Pat Terry
Catch The Wind by Donovan
You’ve Got Me Wrapped Around Your Little Finger by Beth Rowley
I Couldn’t Live Without Your Love by Petula Clark
The Glow Worm by The Mills Brothers
Saturday Night At The Movies by The Drifters